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In Pursuit Of...

Posted by the prisoner's wife On 1:08 AM

it's amazing how the universe works.

lately i've been feeling as if something has been missing. feeling like i'm spending my life working, and not enjoying my time on earth. in the last post i mentioned that i was searching for my passion, when all along, i already knew.

i love to write. i love to fling my words and thoughts into the atmosphere for people to digest, to enjoy, to discuss, to devour (nightly lol). it's something i've always been (fairly) good at. but yet i continued to hesitate. i continued to make excuses as to why i wasn't writing (no inspiration!), why i wasn't submitting work (lazy!), or why i wasn't working within the writing world (too hard to break into!). all along my issue wasn't about being unaware of my strengths & passion, but rather it has ALWAYS been about doubting myself and being afraid i'm not good enough.

slowly, i have been taking steps to sort of break free of my self-doubt. recently i've submitted to two mags, and just when the idea of (re)starting my own lit journal/press weighed heavily on my mind, last night a friend asked me if he should ressurrect a lit project we founded some time ago. kizmet.

immediately my mind began racing and i started talking a mile a minute about how we could/should/WILL do it. how, this time, we need to be super serious and business-minded and not just take our talent and skills for granted. after all, we have kids and families we need to feed. i think i overwhelmed him. matter of fact, i know i did. he told me my energy was like a bully LOL and we needed to slow down. but i'm so excited. the seed has defintely been planted.

it's crazy.

the moment you make a conscious decision to find ways to be in pursuit of, to try to reach for what you want, to grab it with both hands and believe...the universe opens up and makes room for you.

7 Response to 'In Pursuit Of...'

  1. Christina Said,
    http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/in-pursuit-of.html?showComment=1194009900000#c4605102308659957614'> Friday, November 02, 2007 6:25:00 AM

    You have a gift and there is no denying it! Your writing is the real thing. I am elated to read your words today. To feel that the universe is "making room".... that's a beautiful thing.


  2. http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/in-pursuit-of.html?showComment=1194031500000#c4806540975611831225'> Friday, November 02, 2007 12:25:00 PM

    christina: thank you! i appreciate your cheerleading, it makes me feel just a bit more confident.


  3. bygpowis Said,
    http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/in-pursuit-of.html?showComment=1194236880000#c1176057072887645946'> Sunday, November 04, 2007 8:28:00 PM

    get on it or get gone. life's waaay to short.


  4. Anonymous Said,
    http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/in-pursuit-of.html?showComment=1194597840000#c3430919263654994502'> Friday, November 09, 2007 12:44:00 AM

    Go on girl!

    I know that moment when you feel liberated, and you gather the strength and courage to prusue your dreams...


  5. Stephen Bess Said,
    http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/in-pursuit-of.html?showComment=1194707700000#c2211244670958781146'> Saturday, November 10, 2007 7:15:00 AM

    You're definitely "good enough." I'm one of your biggest fans. I love the way you put words together when you decide to share your poetry. I recently received my first rejection letter for some of my poetry. That's cool because I'm still going to submitt. I've felt what you're feeling. I thought that maybe my work wasn't good enough to be published. Well, it is and your work is too. I'm looking forward to the day when we will exchange our newly published books and they are both signed...

    "All praises are due to God because it is through him that we are able to take these words and create such beauty. Amen."


  6. http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/in-pursuit-of.html?showComment=1194880260000#c6107973434900561700'> Monday, November 12, 2007 7:11:00 AM

    your writing shows me u are enjoying and making the best of your time on this planet


  7. http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/in-pursuit-of.html?showComment=1195098240000#c4167597738077848200'> Wednesday, November 14, 2007 7:44:00 PM

    thanks for all your words.

    bless: thank you...i can't wait for that day!

    byg: you are SO right.

    lyten: thank you.

    torrance: say word.