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can’t see the forest for the trees

Posted by the prisoner's wife On 2:14 PM

sometimes I sit and wonder how my life ended up like THIS. this meaning a solo wife & mommy, trying desperately to hold it all together…on my own (sorta). I wonder what God is trying to teach me by going through all of this. sometimes I wonder why I wasn’t more dedicated to my writing when I was in the city of dreams. Why I let so many opportunities slip through my fingers. I wonder why I’m still not doing what my heart wants to do. I wonder will I ever be brave enough to just go for it.

I wonder and I wonder and I wonder some more.

When I’m alone with my thoughts I question how we get into the situations that are our lives. I try not to sit and feel sorry for myself, or wonder what could have been if I would have just turned left, and not right, because that’s useless. it’s all spilled milk and there’s no use in crying over it now, right?

When I get into a funk and start feeling all down for myself, usually, something or someone comes along and makes me smile. Lately, it has been my little one. He cracks me up with all of his 2-year-old bravado.

My baby is hilarious. He is starting to “read.” Every morning he runs to the car and starts calling out letters, while pointing to those on the back of the car (“E!” “A!”). Although he hasn’t quite matched up the right letter to the correct sound, it cracks me up. He is so happy to point & shout out letters, it makes me happy just to see him having so much fun. And that makes our commute just a bit more pleasant. I am no longer grumpy, or tired, or feeling down….

I am thankful

I am thankful to see the day break across the sky. Thankful I can pay for extra collect calls on holidays. Thankful for beloved’s sanity (and my own!). thankful for long weekends, and 44 hour rendezvous with my Mr., and cheesecake(!), and holding hands, and cooking dinner for my princes, and reading with my son, and everything I often overlook. I am thankful for the struggle and the lessons God is constantly teaching me, in spite of how much they sometimes hurt.

As the holiday season approaches…what are you guys MOST thankful for this year?


4 Response to 'can’t see the forest for the trees'

  1. http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/cant-see-forest-for-trees.html?showComment=1195839900000#c5579166789145123774'> Friday, November 23, 2007 9:45:00 AM

    Dear Prisoner's Wife,


    Good question. I am most thank for my family: my wife/traveling companion, incredible three children and my xtended family



  2. Christina Said,
    http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/cant-see-forest-for-trees.html?showComment=1195870740000#c8626546554319575980'> Friday, November 23, 2007 6:19:00 PM

    Always for Gods blessings:for today I am simply thankful for friendship, yep friendship. Wink!


  3. http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/cant-see-forest-for-trees.html?showComment=1196024220000#c6175043722064091192'> Sunday, November 25, 2007 12:57:00 PM

    I am thankful for my new wife, for my family's health, for my current projects, for my spiritual wealth, and so much more.


  4. Lotta Said,
    http://theprisonerswife.blogspot.com/2007/11/cant-see-forest-for-trees.html?showComment=1198190520000#c8899348098767858673'> Thursday, December 20, 2007 2:42:00 PM

    I'm thankful that as I grow older I'm able to see what's really important in my life. My family, our health and true friendships. Hope you have a wonderful holiday with your sweet baby.